Not If I See You First by Eric Lindstrom

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Not If I See You First | Eric Lindstrom | Harper Collins | January 2016

About the Book

Parker Grant doesn’t need perfect vision to see right through you. That’s why she created the Rules: Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances.

When Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart, suddenly reappears at school, Parker knows there’s only one way to react – shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough to deal with already, like trying out for the track team, handing out tough-love advice to her painfully naïve classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn’t cried since her dad’s death. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened – both with Scott, and her dad – the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem.

Not If I See You First illuminates those blind spots that we all have in life, whether visually impaired or not.


Not If I See You First by Eric LindstromNot If I See You First is the most dialogue driven narrative I’ve come across in a long time it made for an interesting experience and you can certainly see the authors background in writing for video games.

Parker initially comes across as quite uncompromising, but I have to say, not unlikable. Her relationship with her friends and the way they interact with each other, make it clear there is another side to her character. She tries to offer good, or at least honest, advice to those that ask for it, and she really just wants people to treat her as the capable person she is.

It soon becomes clear (if it wasn’t already by the synopsis) that there is a reason behind her character and rules. Life has most definitely handed her a rough deal, and she hasn’t really dealt with the recent death of her father. I mean really, giving herself a gold star for every day she doesn’t cry, is just asking for trouble, her stubbornness makes it almost impossible for her to move on.

As Parker realises that some of the decisions she has made in the past, while justified, might have been overly harsh, the walls she has built slowly start to collapse, to move forward, she’s going to have to let them.

There were a couple of standout scenes for me, one where she has a very public breakdown, which is something we see coming a mile off, and marks the turning point for Parker, and then the scene at the running track, which was almost as exhilarating to read as it must have been for Parker to experience.

I really enjoyed following Parker on her journey in Not If I See You First, it’s hard and emotional at times, but definitely worth your while.

My copy of Not If I See You First by Eric Windstorm was provided by the publisher via Netgalley for review purposes.